I’m one of those people that during the Lockdown, and before, is still at work and during the lockdown, in particular, I’ve had a lot of emotions and thoughts go through my mind so I thought id share my ramblings. At no point do I think I’m as important as many of the Services, including the NHS, and certainly not had the perhaps danger and stress of those people also, but I am in a shop dealing with people every day, with risks, stresses and concerns.
No doubt there is a big part of me that is concerned ever since this all started, that I would get it, and worse still pass it on to my kids, fortunately, the kids and wife have been on Lockdown with only a small amount of the week where Boo can leave the house. However it is often on the top of mind that it’s the kids I’m more worried about, this often influences how I interact with people and can be a little judgemental.
What’s actually happening out there?
For those who haven’t been out or have been very limited in their outside lives id love to say people are following the guidelines…but many aren’t, and id argues theirs more that aren’t following the rules when they are out compared to those who do venture out that are following those rules. You can see if you are driving, I get that people will be saying “I’m having my daily exercise” and some might be, but standing just chatting with a neighbour with not much distance(less than 2 Meters, isn’t correct, and why would I be so annoyed at this? its simply because there are many others that are following rules, and trying to Stay at home and Stay safe, protecting there love ones, and this frustrates me for them as well, let alone no doubt some of those people will also be saying Stay home etc…but there not following there own advice on a variety of the rules.
In shops its no different, I have customers that try to just hand me stuff on the shop floor, with no regard to the 2 Meters, the company to be fair has put in several steps, like zones, signs, plastic separating tills and customers, as have many shops around the company, but in mine, people don’t always follow, ours is a smaller convenient shop and is often shopped by elderly or local people, we haven’t got the space of a big Supermarket for you to get far out of the way, and that’s part of the problem because its local customers feel less worried, and unfortunately the Elderly is probably the worse at his, which worrying as they are at more risk than anyone. I personally have found this all frustrating and at times upsetting, as this puts my health and thus the families health in jeopardy, so I might be maybe going over the top with this but my family comes first.
Its been effecting me at home, all of my friends are not at work, there being paid to just sit at home and play games, drink, watch films etc.. ironically they are all getting fully paid for some reason or another, and arguably treating all of this as a big jolly at home, which as the weeks have gone have also frustrated me and up to me, its good there not going out and how they spend time is up to them, I get that but I’m working as much as I can to pay the bills while putting my health at risk, and it’s just so annoying.
I appreciate that people are getting a little bored at home and wanting to leave the house, creating reasons to leave or just going on walks to break up the day (excerise) but there are reasons to be at home, staying health, staying safe, reducing the risk to others, and just think, you are at home in your own saftey, surrounded by family doing almost what ever you want, its not that difficult, it could be worse, you could be ill, you could be on the frontline, or you could be risking it like i am to help others, if you financially have to work then i applaud you if you taking the safey steps, but just think how you effect others and could put others at risk, we all want to be safe, if you can help others fantastic but we are all in it together, that includes all of those unsung heroes that are at work, or helping someone, im sorry if this is a rant, and this is just my emotional rant perhaps of what its like to be out there almost every day, but like most things in life, it can always be worse.